15 Frames With the Rollei 35

Aug 5

The rollei 35 might be my most favorite 35mm camera… ever. While I am not a fan of 35mm the option of having this extremely small, well built, and quiet mechanical titan in hand while I am walking around museums or town is a joy. I own the original Rollei 35 (Made in Germany) with the 40mm F3.5 Tessar lens. While not the fastest it certainly gets the job done and is quite sharp.

I took the camera for a spin around the Museum of Fine Arts here in Boston, as well as a few snags at the Elizabeth Gardner Museum while hanging out with a friend. All images are on Kodak P3200, shot at 3200.

This week, I saw a story from a friend of mine that said something along the lines of not allowing fear to rule you. Jokingly I responded that “Fear owns me. I am fears bitch. It thumbs me in the…” As much as I was joking a part of me wasn’t. A part of me hates the fact that I can jump out of a plane without a second thought, but will fear doing things that be an upheaval in my life.

I don’t know maybe I don’t fear it, maybe I just have anxiety about it, crippling anxiety. The truth however, at least that which I have deemed to be truthful in this scenario is that… once it is done, it is done. Once I have done that which made me anxious there is a sense of the relief that follows. A sense of why was I worried about this in the first place?

My fears don’t rule me, but I would like to work on my sometimes-debilitating anxiety. Working on this addresses a lot of things for me. It addresses being compensated, it addresses being able to request the things you should from those around you, it addresses being more assertive in who you are.

I surmise that this anxiety could be a childhood trauma/lesson I have learned in someway and not in others. I am almost 29 and I still have more to learn. Crazy how the older you get the more you realize that most adults around you growing up were winging it just as well.

The difference between me and them, they had a child or children and I don’t. I am winging it only for myself…. If you read my rambling this far I appreciate you, if you didn’t and was only here for the photos.. I still appreciate you.